今晚我跟家人吵架，我骂地很大声。
突然很伤感，突然害怕会失去现在拥有的，这是我第一次害怕没了这个友情。我的大学生活刚开始，就觉得好像爱上了那班人。他们很奇怪。很多事情不能理解。但是自己却无缘无故不舍得。现在唯一的愿望就是一直保持这人生最美的时刻。因为害怕所以我会努力的！

i met some nice ppl in imu.
i know wads yr questions my answer is last wenday im late for 3weeks from the calss.
everyone speak english but i cant speak well maybe i need some time to adapt and to improve my ability.
it may take some time hopefully someone will wait for me.but is it posible? no one know TT  I was so stressfull these days the reason is not i cant understand the class thats small case the major problem is i cant comunicate woth the new friends and these make me feeling stress.
but i hv promiss someone just now that i would try my best to be not quiet try my best to talk more ! wait me guys it may take some time but dont worry becoz  it will worth! so at the fristday i asked poh yee to borrow me d spm books for me she doesnt look will but eventually she still lend me , her birthday is on this sunday i cant go to the party no one invite me lol TT so i bought this prasent to her hopefully she  will like my chocolate lol

Wonderful Christmas EVE

today is Christmas eve

and its the warmest night in the year 

everyone is going to gather at a place and having a gorgeous pumpkin soup each of the christian d but actually i m not a christian 

I'm going to my cousin Christmas party tomorrow ,in the meanwhile there will hv a farewell party for my cousin 

she is going to Canada for the higher education ,she has taken science course 

normally studying in there is quite expensive for us but she was born in there so everything is cheap for she including tuition , hotel fees......

hopefully, I'll celebrate Christmas in Australia on next year as i hv ready to apply for the uni in there 

now I'm waiting for the English examination , just registered the IELTS and PTE 

I'm fear that it may be too late when the IElts result out so I going to take both

becoming a chiropractor is my dream and i must achieve it no matter how much i  need to pay for it

every country is lacking of this kind of doctor so this is a business and a best career 

there is less people know whats a chiro do for the patient 

A chiro helps to gv effective treatment to the people who's suffering from back pain or even neck, shoulder,headache .........

most of the people don't know what to do when thy are facing these problems 

such as me , i have scoliosis . I recognise it when i was 15 year-old  , that time i not worry about that as i didn't know it will being worst in the past few years . I have met some family doctor and physical therapy but it doesnt work well.

fortunately my mum friend  i used to be call her aunt as we all d the same thing in here

she introduce me to see a doctor, i dint know what doctor he is as i had nvr heard before what is a chiropractor and what they do .

when i saw him , he explain about the spinner and gv adjustment to my spinner and also gv some advice to my meal 

i think chiro d well in reducing our physical pain than other doctor

In this lesion ，i dearly experienced how painful for a person who hv scoliosis and suffering at the night as the pain is disturbing a person sleeping.

that kind of pain is like bees stinking into the bone 

i was like in the hell when the pain outbreaking 

therefore i tell myself one day i wanna to become a chiropractor as there is much more person like me are suffering and being at a loss 

while today is Christmas eve i hope my dream come true ~

ＷＩＳＨ　Ｕ　ＭＡＲＲＹ　ＣＨＲＩＳＴＭＡＳ　＆　ＨＡＰＰＹ　ＮＥＷ　ＹＥＡＲ

however I'm not a Christian XD

After graduation

Weee~ 

My brother is back and we went to midvelly together this morning

Tats stupid bus is so anonymous ,the aircon is not working and everyone on the buy is squeezing fron to back.

I do nth these days besides going out for movie with a guy and shopping like this morning .

Haha actually I'm using my mon phone now this is my first time using phone to write on blog coz android apps doesn't work great as apple one.  

I'm trying write in English as I'm planing to go Australia for take chiropractic course soon! 

Haha I'm so excited and going to have a better and different life unlike when I was in high school tats is my worse dream I ever hv 

PEACE

说我可悲也罢，行为微缩也罢，对其他人虚伪也罢。
但是请你不要说我猥琐！！！
这不我想要的！什么也没请眼看到的人请你闭嘴好吗？
在说你也不认识我，你真的这样会看相的话，去做师傅算了！
猥琐！？真的不敢相信你竟然可以拿别人阴影开玩笑
这样真得很好玩吗？
自己的身体状况有问题却被人取笑
将心比心，我想你也不想被人批评自己的外表吧
至少我可以承认我比你好
至少我有努力过，做复健
请你在未了解情况之前不要乱下评论！
在问你知道让你睡不着坐不下过着地狱般的生活那种痛吗？
不是我再吹，自己想象一下
也许你没做过激烈的运动，问你身边的朋友可以
在这里让你增加多一点点的小知识
跑步后手臂会酸痛(需靠手臂带动身体)
那种酸痛如果分布在整个背后，颈部，肩膀，胸部(brisket)
会有什么感受?
冲凉的时候不敢面对自己的身体，你能体会吗？也许吧？
或许一些人都是注定逃不了别人批评。

我已经尝试过很多真的很多不同的眼神，这样的感觉不对那样的感觉也不对
说真的有一些天生就长这样，如果你真的是真心对人必然能够感受到，哪怕是用着满是杀气的眼神
虚伪！？我承认自己是有
因为这样可以帮助我掩盖我的不满，紧张甚至是害怕。
说到低，路只有自己走过在知道别人是怎么过来的吧。这句话我想也必要说到这么明，伤害彼此。

那么可悲的我，真的没有什么资格也没有能力去伤害别人
请你不要在做任何的猜测了，请你用你的心去感觉吧
那句话从你嘴巴说出，心里实在是很不满也很失望
请你们不要诬蔑我的真心！我可以很坦白的说初中一起度过三年的同学，我对他们都是真心的
喜欢就是喜欢，不满就是不满，我的眼神一定不会我任何一丝虚伪。
因为那三年唯一让我感觉到自己的存在，我也很珍惜那三年！

我是一个愚蠢的人，不会说话
想不话题就真的不知道要说什么
整个人就会像一个傻瓜呆着，这个时候只望你相信我没有任何意思，只是纯粹的脑空白
如果本人真的有话题一定会跟你聊不停

也许想我这样可悲的人变了也请你们慷慨解囊接受人的改变
现在不变以后也还是会变的，看看身边的人其实心里也有数



也许不会有以下经历
 被孤立，背叛，利用，排撤....................
这些一点点已经足以让人崩溃
所以请你再下任何结论时
多些了解来龙去脉。
很感谢你们的陪伴和一些搭话的同学
本人不敢想象在你们心中的地位
但是我还是很感恩

也许你会认为我这样只是为了讨好别人
得到更多的朋友
我没能说什么
因为这个每个人都会渴望
我觉得我该我这个权力
至少我肯踏出这一步，否者什么都不会改变为什么就不能支持我呢？
你真地认为这一步那么简单吗？
还是那句话将心比心
批评别人的人也许你没事过那种滋味
我相信你也会有哪一天
除非你不改变


PS:本人知道这个是我的地盘也唯一让我能够毫无考虑的发言
所以请不要把这里的任何东西带出去

第一次彩排的时候
那个场景再次发生在我的身上
当时我想如果这个时候是隐形的话就好
不知道除了站在那里
冷静的等着还可能做些什么事
因为我不敢再去想象其他人的想法

过后俊豪终于来搭话
接着是家洛
其实那时候心里真得很兴奋
因为今天本来只打算和koyi一起

唱毕业歌的时候
flash back 的画面只有初中的事
仿佛活了18年
3年的记忆都消失
到现在我都还是很珍惜以前的事
虽然也还有不愉快的事发生

上舞台的时候
自己坐在下面
真替以前的同班同学感到光荣
他们改变了很多
我的意思是变的更好了
其实我不敢看着你们
因为这样的我
很羞耻
也许你们回看不起我
我也不想让你们对脸

家政是个好的负责人
他 有这个能力去办好
只是台下那些不懂事的小家伙在捣蛋
所以他其实可以不需要生气

我相信他以后一定是一个很厉害的人
加油！

Miserable

刚刚看到''friend'' post 的东西
明天好像要彩排毕业典礼
让我刚绝鸡皮疙瘩
那份恐惧又出现了
甚至考虑毕业典礼的出席
不闲坐后悔的事
但是却不敢面对
今晚也许只能望着天花板

今天选择了逃避
不过真的不知道除了这以外还可以做什么
这疤还没消失
在家里其实也是无所事事
我很想参加他们在巴士上说的
去Melbourne 打杂工
不是钱的问题
只是我太爱那里
觉得可以在那边重新开始
在没有任何污点的地方生活
顺便熟练自己的英文



查了一些RMIT的资料
还是有点搞不清楚
我真得很想成为一个 Chiropractor
因为我能体会那种恐惧
那种痛苦
睡不着 坐不下
地狱般的生活
我想减少每个人的痛苦

我要让他们脱离地狱的折磨

想一个正常人